Confessions....

First - I am just too tired to get on the treadmill this morning.  Yes, instead of playing around on the computer, I should just go workout.  However, I am just drained and need a one day break.  Actually, I will workout tonight after work.  I promise.

Second, the other part of this NEW me is suppose to be me growing more closer to our gracious and saving Lord.  I wish I could say that journey is going as well as the weight loss; however, that would be telling a lie.  Oh, I am definitely praying more and praying at times I would not usually pray.  However, I have not been to church in two weeks and I have not reading my Bible like I should. 

Yes, I realize the last two weeks have been very hectic around this house.  I also know that my place has been with Johnny while he mends.  However, I miss church.  I miss the fellowship.

Also, when I first went back to church several years ago, I was hungry to learn.  Hungry to learn all I could.  I read the bible every morning.  I had my quiet relfection time every evening.  I felt so much stronger then.  And then, I don't know what happened. 

So now, when I want to start building that relationship again, I feel broken.  I feel like my prayers are not being heard.  I feel that I have turned my back maybe one to many times and He is finished with me.  I feel like the devil is always there putting some obstacle in my way to prevent me from getting back to that feeling I use to have and devotation I use to have.   I honestly hate feeling like this!  I feel like a spirtual nothing!

Guess I am just asking for prayers right now that I get back on the right path ASAP.  Also, prayers that HE is not finished with me and that I can save the relationship I need with HIM!

Come along for the ride.  The adventure is sometimes not all sunny.....